Still feel like I'm dreaming (a few days late)

                  A month ago I was handed this little guy....

                       And today my little boy is one month old!  

Some days I wake up feeling like this month has been a dream.   Motherhood has been much more than I could have ever imagined. Before Clayton came into our lives, I prepared myself for horrible sleepless nights, postpartum blues, high levels of stress and lots of tears.  The past month has been beautiful.  Everyday has been filled with love, happiness and laughter with only little moments of tears.  Even at my most anxious moments (Is he still breathing? Is he doomed for man-hood if I don't handle his circumcision properly? Why hasn't he pooped in 48 hours? Did I really just cut his finger with nail clippers? My kid only sleeps upright, Baby acne has caused his eye to swell shut, Suddenly he's started puking up a 5am bottle) I can't help but look at his sweet little face with a warm heart and a smile.
My delivery was smooth and flawless.  With a scheduled c-section, I walked in with hair and make up done, well rested, and excited.  I didn't know they had even started the procedure until they were almost done.  The minute I heard him cry, I was flooded with emotions.  I was happy that he was safe but instantly started to question and worry about every little thing. It took about an hour to get him in my arms.  In that instant, I felt calm and complete.  My little guy was perfect and healthy, I was a mom, and we had our little family together in one room.  Clayton had minor issues with the birth.  His lungs had excess fluid that needed suctioning.  Between that and a little TLC from his Mama, he was good to go! The day he was born was wonderful pain-wise.  I was still on all of the surgery medications, so I felt great for meeting my little man and all of our visitors.  The next day was quite the opposite, but every day after that got better. 
Clayton is such a good little boy.  He rarely cries unless you are changing his diaper or he is hungry.  Even then, it is more of a fuss than a full on cry.  From day 1, he has done a great job adapting to the feeding/sleeping schedule.  This boy loves to eat and loves to sleep even more.  Sleeping at night the first week wasn't so smooth but he's adjusted well.  Normally, he will eat every 4 hours during the day at 6 hours at night.  The first night we let him wake himself, I stayed up making sure he was alive every few hours but now I really can't complain much about a lack of night time sleep.  For the first 3 weeks, he would only sleep in his car seat, bouncy seat or on one of us but he has become much more adaptable recently.
He's changed so much since he was born.  He has gained weight at lightening speeds it seems.  He's increased his food intake and length of sleep times.  He responds to Mama and Daddy's voices, grabs for his toys, picks his head up, and just today started smiling (because he's happy and not because he's farting).  He requires more and more attention from us and not just sleep anymore which I love because I have every excuse to fore-go being productive to put a smile on his face instead.  My little man is growing so fast, I don't want to miss a minute!
Clayton is so easy going he makes it easy for me to be a stress-free and laid back mom....in most areas... I am a strict schedule follower, even on the go.  We try to be on the go as much as possible which means there have been many feedings and diaper changes in the car.  I have my own routine for repacking the diaper bag at night so I can grab and go at any minute.  As long as I plan ahead with supplies, I feel like the more we get around, the more flexible he will be with restaurants, car trips, errands, etc.  No matter how laid back, of course there are plenty of things that I worry about.  I just find that he helps me relax and therefore those things are far less consuming (plus there is always Google....which usually makes me feel better)
In the past month, my entire house has been filled with baby equipment, countless loads of laundry and a dishwasher that seems to be running non-stop.  I've never been so careful to keep dog hair off things, I wake up even when he doesn't, I see friends far less, I put everything I am doing on hold for his needs.  I've never laughed so hard over pee, poop and puke.  Even with all of that, I can not imagine our lives with out this little boy.  Everyday with him has brought pure happiness to our lives.  I'm so happy to wake up and face the day....knowing each day has another adventure in store.